I was in a depression this morning, but today has turned out to be a good day. I slept in and listened to the rain on my window. And then my sister took me to Long John's for lunch, and then we went shopping to finish up our Christmas lists. So I'm pretty satisfied now. Also, I have a whole new array of Generation Kill-related icons and that also makes me happy. On top of the mood theme. xD So uh, yeah. Christmas decorating this weekend, riding tomorrow. In a pretty good mood.

I just watched New Moon, and honestly, in comparison to Twilight, it's a damn masterpiece. I mean, that's not saying much, but I truly did love it. It had its expected cheesy moments, but in this case, the good outweighed the bad for me. The wolves were epic, the score was gorgeous and overall, it was a beautifully shot movie. I'm so pleased I could squeal, but it'd wake the family, so..yeah. I won't do that. But I'd seriously go see it or find it online because it's worth a watch. The acting improved marginally and wasn't nearly as awkward, thank god. I honestly think I like Jacob better now just because Taylor Lautner is a pretty good actor for his age. Lots of eye candy is also a plus. I'm psyched for Eclipse now. ^.^ Woot wooooot!

Just got a call from the temp agency and it looks like I'm out of work til further notice. They said they "ran out" of work for us to do, when we had at least a day's worth of work left in that project. I know they're getting another huge project in, but now they're not sure that it'll need indexed so, I might have just lost my job. I'm so livid right now. If they bring anyone back, it'll be based on performance, and I know I was up there in the top few for entering the most records a day, so hopefully they'll ask me back. I'm just so pissed right now.

So about two and a half weeks ago I got a job in an office in an old limestone mine doing data entry and so far, I love it. My coworkers are off the wall crazy in the best of ways, and the work is so easy. Not to mention the pay. And I made another mood theme based on Generation Kill (by Talipuu for credit). Good times thus far. =)

So I just got back from a party in Leechburg, and it was an interesting evening. I tried a new beer, Blue Moon, and actually liked it. Karlyn and I sat with Crystal and Gary and had a good time just catching up and laughing about various things. Then this guy in like, his 40s or so, came over and was trying SO HARD to get me to talk to him, it was horrible. He was so creepy. Go figure, the ONE guy I get who wants to talk to me is creepy as hell. *shudder* Anyway...we went up to the bar and got drinks, but Karlyn had forgotten her ID. So we were like, CRAP. But then, out of the blue, her boss walks by. She didn't even know he'd be there. xD So she grabs him and he vouches for her, and she was just one very lucky chick. lol. She and I left around midnight because we were exhausted, and I'm glad I got away from that creeper. o_o There was karaoke and the people singing were pretty terrible for most of the night so..yeah...once again, a pretty interesting evening.

First off, can I just say "Holy shit I knew this would happen?"...I can?...Good. Holy shit, I knew this would happen. Every time I have a perfectly amazing day, the next day is always shit. o_o Pure and simple. I actually woke up in a very good mood, but also knowing that something bad would happen. And it did. I got to the barn, did all the work, and noticed a tear in my horsie rain boots that I've been using for mucking. I can't think of how they even tore. I didn't get stepped on, they didn't get caught on anything. No idea. So I was kinda miffed about that. But then I go to tack up Discovery and I asked Jess where he was. Her response? "Oh, he's leaving today." My response? "......"

That terrified me at first. Because that could mean one of two things: They found him a home, or it's the end of the line for him because they couldn't find him a home. Thankfully, Sandy said a family in Saxonburg bought him, so I was semi-relieved. At least he went to a good home. But I was heartbroken that I'd never get to ride him again. I held myself together when she asked me to bring him in from his field and clean him up before trailering him, and I kept telling myself, "He's not your horse. You couldn't have afforded him anyway. It's no big deal. He'll be well taken care of." And that worked for a while. I went and started tacking up Harmony, my other favorite horse, after Discovery was gone, and was promptly informed that she was being used for a trail ride. So I didn't even get to ride her. I ended up on this horse that was a complete asshole, and this day, long story short, just sucked. I'll never see Discovery again, I didn't even get to ride the other horse I like to make myself feel better, and my favorite boots are torn. And to top it off, I pretty much sobbed the whole way home. The only thing that made this day better was going for sushi and edamame with Karlyn afterwards. I just hurt so badly from yesterday's ride and now I hurt emotionally. Something tells me it's margarita time..lol.

I don't think I remember being this happy. At least, not for a while. Today, I went and visited Allegheny and talked to my old boss for about an hour, with a few of the others in the office coming in to talk and wish me luck in my job search. It was just so nice catching up and talking to them again. I loved working there.

Then, I walked up to the Steffee lot to wait for the E-team van. I drove out to the barn with Kate and two new freshmen. Once we got there, my old instructor seemed happy to see me. She knew I was coming, but I think she was still surprised that I'd drop by for a visit. I got to ride my favorite horse, Sugar, and I had the best ride I've had since graduation. I seriously don't think I'll ever be as comfortable on any other horse. I haven't cantered since I last rode her because it usually makes me nervous, but I didn't feel an ounce of fear at all. When Halli told me to go into a canter, I just did, and that's a first for me. I guess it just felt so good being there again. They also have two of the furriest, cutest and friendliest barn cats I've ever met. So, overall, this day kicked ass. I'm hoping that after work at the barn tomorrow, I can force myself to get the horse I ride there into a good canter. I really need to work on that...

Long story short, I had a pretty dull and miserable day. The first thing I do after my shower in the morning is to check my email. Annnd today I got another rejection email from one of the jobs I really wanted. I should be used to this by now, but whatever. I literally spent hours just playing games and surfing the net on my laptop. I'd say I hate my life, but I don't really have a life, soooo...yeah. Can't say that legitimately. lol.

One good thing is that Halloween's coming up and I'll get to go to a party with my friends. I also get to go to the 'gheny this Thursday, and I'm going to go riding with the E-team girls. [There were wayyy too many damn "g"s in that last sentence] I'm so excited to see my favorite horsie, even if I don't get to ride her, it's ridiculous. This is what my life has been reduced to. Sad, no?

And one of these days, I totally have to get a new set of emotion icons.

New header, yaaay..it's my first lame attempt at a "vector" image on photoshop, so..be kind. xD I personally think it's cute. So there. *raspberries*

So like I said in my last post, I've been doing a lot of rethinking about Twilight (thanks fans for ruining it with your fanaticism!!) and I realized that if I'm going to like anyone in the series at all anymore, it'll be Jake. He's the only realistic character in the entire goddamn series. Edward's a controlling ass, Bella's just...no words can describe how I detest the weak, sniveling bitch, but Jacob is actually a believable teenage boy. o_o And he's likable. He's funny, and genuinely cares for Bella. Yeah, he can get annoying and protective, but Edward's just a douche, so it's understandable. I think what made me really think this over is the fans. People who are hardcore Edward/Bella only are INSANE. I.N.S.A.N.E. They cannot accept that there are other characters in the series other than the pathetic Romeo and Juliet freakshow that dominates the stories. It really is pathetic that whenever we're treated to a new clip from the film as a teaser, the E/B fans are all UGH IT WAS ALL ABOUT JACOB UGH IT SHOULD ONLY BE EDWARD AND BELLA I'M GONNA STAB SUMMIT, BWWAAHHHH. I can't wait til they all grow up and look back on their childish bullshit and realize what dumbasses they were. I'm half tempted to stop watching some of the pro-Twilight groups on LJ, but their senseless rants DO provide some good entertainment. It shows how stupid teenagers and the love-obsessed can be. Then again, these are also the people who think Stephenie Meyer can write. Thank god she DID mention classics in her books, so maybe these lost kiddies and lonely housewives/soccer moms can get into some well-written, good literature. Looking back on it, I really don't know what the appeal for me was. Maybe because S.M.'s storytelling, though shitty, really does suck you in, and boy was I sucked in. Maybe because I did like the idea of vampires that weren't stereotypical in so many ways, and that her werewolves/shapeshifters weren't another Wolfman, they actually turned into animals. I liked those. But Bella is just so pathetic, it makes me sad that so many young girls take her on as a role model. Sure, she could be snide and kind of funny at times, but she's as weak as one can get. If someone calls her a feminist-friendly character ever again, they're getting a pencil in the eye. lol. She's a Stepford-wifish, swooning anti-feminist. I guess I just hate kids. They ruin everything. Even fandoms. -.- Oh well. End rant. Just needed to get that out.